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breakpoint |
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to justify to myself some things maybe I woudn't do again
to try, despite all, to still communicate
information is what you read °,
knowledge is how you link it °,
understanding is why °
the title is a dedication to Kathryn Bigelow's Point Break °,
and to what one can do for love
"try to live simply"
17-1-02 "giò" ^ Y + + + +λ + [ link types ]
30-1-02 "Some, selected, persons +
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have done and do a lot
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for me +"
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"You sure don't know anything about my life, so don't make any conclusion"
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31-1-02 "falling in love is something serious"
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"this melodramatic approach * , honestly, only gets me angry"
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"among other things, A LOT, by someone extremely
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important"
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"in 6 months many things can change"
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14-2-02 "a world of music: http://www.emusic.com/features/valentines2002/index.html"
λ°
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26-2-02 "I didn't send you anywhere" ^ ^
5-3-02 "this strong passion you have for dramatic situations + * gets me anxious and fearful" +
10-3-02 "there's no randomness: only a missing interpretation" * + ^
21-3-02 "let's leave out metaphisical and metalinguistical conversations + "
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"a fair amount of conformism + helps keeping
serene and simple relationships +;"
"what everyone is outside the office +
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is part of his life and sometimes you have to make compromises. +"
28-3-02 "stop once for all being a damn everlasting nuisance"
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"if you can't be less naughty and childish"
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"it makes me feel still more ‘used’"
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13-4-02 "you would put me in troubles"
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"maybe, future conditional period, it could be, as time passes by.."
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Still this thing goes on, if not forever, for a long time
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24-4-02 "This is the real pain; I don't mind if she doesn't love me now, or even never, I can manage not to think at it. The pain is that she maybe with somebody else. I ask myself *why* does sex exist...."
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"I'm starting to be ashemed of myself, for the things I told her. And not because I lied, but because I really said all the truth about me, invain."
« And your spouse? » asks the other one. « I don't know anything, no more. I can't understand anything. I don't want no more. I don't have a spouse. I have never had, and have never desired to have one. I've never loved. I've never been. Please, leave me alone. » *
28-4-02 "one with strong convictions & so full of love" + (B.) +
29-4-02 "concerning the rest, the door is closed" +
30-4-02 "I'm not seriously thinking about suicide. My detachment from reality is only ‘passive’;
I don't want anything,
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not even suicide."
+ °
"he didn't have the faith of what a new day may bring" (V.)
2-5-02 "it's not professional at all, it's embarassing, unseemly and blackmailing."
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"I beg you to start and behave like an adult"
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4-5-02 "why thinking I've also my sensitivity made you cry?"
Y
"sincerily, I didn't know you made this [for me] "
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"Also that mostruosly insensible person has a heart"
9-5-02 "Yes, your arguments were interesting" ^ ^ +
10-5-02 "You don't need to see in reality a person for 8 hours"
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"sometimes we'll have lunch together, but don't expect it will happen very often..."
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11-5-02 "everytime I've stayed away for days, it's been for this reason."
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"even in love relationships I don't compromise with my freedom"
"when you're sure about friendship, or love, you can be completely free."
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13-5-02 "if you really want to make an effort and try to get out of the center of the world"
"I'm not childish, apart for what concerns you;"
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14-5-02 "my need for love, at present, is yet fully satisfied"
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"the person who stays by my side"
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"I go cycling on the hills, in springtime, amidst the grasslands, flowers, trees, and I think you're with another one? How could I do it?"
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15-5-02 "I don't want to see you anymore"
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"let you be so polite not to face me with the plain fact"
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- "you make me feel ashamed of myself;"
18-5-02
"neither compliments do you like anymore?"
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"we can't find a modus operandi"
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"You really can't be normal, isn't it?"
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"You move from unconditional love to a really offensive behaviour"
"at least inconvenient"
"middle ways are for great men, extremism is for poor in spirit. Think about it." + ^
"it would have been offensive not to say it, if ever"
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When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb
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"If I write you, you often don't reply." + ^ +
20-5-02 "work is work, and life is life."
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"trying to understand who is (or who is not)"
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26-5-02 "I'm not so in reality: I know I should
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go away
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, we need to clarify if I can or why I cannot"
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Where one can no longer love, there should one pass by ° ρ
27-5-02 "clearly I do have a bit of fondness for you"
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"I'd really like you make your choices independently from others, and most of all, from me"
"a bit more of kindness for an especially sensitive person"
29-5-02 "Do you have any idea how many times I have asked myself WHY???????" (B.)
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"I think love can't be related to ‘some’ persons, but just one, unique;"
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"there's really an infinite difference between a lot and everything"
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31-5-02 "thanks, you can go now;" +
5-6-02 "I can no more understand why all this suffering, only for W" ^ + + + Y +
6-6-02 "you'll never know me;" +
Things must change
We must rearrange them
Or we'll have to estrange them
λ°
"I will never even esteem one who looks for love by means of blackmail" + ρ
"there's another irrational solution in which everthing, world and love, is annulled: suicide"
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"I don't accept this suicide blackmail, neither from the dearest friends"
"if this is what you think about me"
7-6-02 "didn't I have the right to sincere answers?"
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"and anyway, I can't see the bit of fondness you have for me"
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"without understanding where I do wrong"
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7-6-02
"just think about behaving like the rest of adults' world"
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"bloody pseudo-philosophical nonsenses"
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"now the end of communications is complete"
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13-6-02 "I don't know how to say this but yes it sounds like you have let your personal life interfere with your professional life. But it also sounds like she has done the same thing. It also sounds like she has used you to gain what she is wanting." ^ + (B.)
20-6-02 "if she used me, if she had some fondness for me, or how much of one and the other"
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3-7-02 "Love is blind, is complete trust, confidence, dependence. It's doing everything, really everything for the one you love; otherwise, it's not love; that's for me;"
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21-7-02 "If I couldn't be there it was just I wouldn't be anymore" ° Y
28-7-02 "I'm born 6 months and a day before you;" + ^